Evidence of Grace

This day loomed before me for quite a while. Yet as its come, and now nearly gone, I've found that God's grace is bigger than my grief. One year ago today my dad passed away. I was fearful that my grief would overwhelm me, and while I've been sad, I find myself enjoying the old memories of Dad's laugh and smile more than I've felt the grief. So here are a couple of pictures of me and my dad so you can smile along with me.

God is So Good!

Let me start by saying that God is SO good! Wednesday after discovering that we were not pregnant, I came home from work and called Josette. What a blessing to have a friend and doctor that "mourns with those that mourn and rejoices with those that are rejoicing." After a good talk, and an even better cry, I put on some praise music and was able to sleep for a couple of hours which did my body and heart good.

As the day progressed and after several phone calls between the Hunter's and the Kavanaugh's, it was decided that Doug and Josette would pick us up for a double date. When they arrived at our house, Rob informed me that he had a surprise for me. I, of couse, was completely clueless and it even took me a few seconds to recognize the surprise even when it was right in front of me. The surprise?...



This isn't the actual limo we used but the look and feel of this image is pretty close. Doug had someone from work drive us in one of his limo's up to Caribou for dinner and a movie. It was so much fun!

Once we came home and were able to talk, Rob and I both commented on how gracious and kind God had been to us. From our perspective the Lord used Doug and Josette to lavish His love on us, to show us a little favor, and to let us know that He has His eye on us. We are so incredibly thankful that we live here. God has surrounded us with so many friends that have supported us in prayer, and have encouraged us with Godly relationships.

Once again I must say - God is So Good!!

The Wait Has Ended

Psalm 34:18 promises; "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit." That is how I'm feeling this morning and I desperately need my Lord near me.

While my natural desire is to curl up in bed and hide for a while, I am choosing to focus on my Savior, my Healer, my Creator...my Abba.

Psalm 61: 5-8
My soul, wait in silence for God alone. For my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my stronghold; I shall not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory rest; the rock of my salvation, my refuge is in God. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.

Thoughts on Waiting

Waiting stinks! That's it. No more to say.

So what goes through my head as I head into the last few days of this two week wait?
Psalm 27: 14
"Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart that courage; Yes, wait for the Lord."

There's a light at the end of the tunnel

I've heard this song many times before but seeing it with these images totally changed the song for me. I had never thought about the words of the song applying to this part of my life, and yet how well they fit!

A few weeks ago at our Women's Prayer Retreat, I asked the Lord to give me a new word to help me deal with the whole 'baby thing'. His response? "I already gave you a word! Now just be patient and praise me while you wait!!" OK, so I'm paraphrasing a little, but that was the gist of His message for me.

So yesterday when we went in for another IUI, I found myself excited, praising Him for encouraging me with a peek at my clearly formed ovary, perfectly positioned uterus and 8 nicely developing follicles. In the past when we went in for this procedure I was nervous, not about the procedure but about the outcome. This time I feel a real peace. I truly feel that there is a light at the end of this tunnel!