Friday, October 23, 2009

Hope Defined

Yesterday Rob and I got to see our baby once again in an ultrasound. It is always so amazingly overwhelming to see how much this child within me has grown. The purpose of this ultrasound was to check to see that all of the baby's parts were developing properly (they are right on track) and (most excitedly) to see if we will be having a little boy or a little girl.

You may have noticed a little change to the look of my blog, that change as you may have guessed is a not so subtle hint as to what we are having-----IT'S A BOY!!!!!! For those of you that have walked this journey with us from the beginning I'm sure you can understand what a surprise this was for us. For the last eight years we have always imagined ourselves with a girl. When either of us had a dream, we have dreamed of a little girl in our arms. Those thoughts and dreams kept us traveling down this long road, kept our hopes alive. But the reality of a little boy is overwhelmingly incredible. As the last few months have progressed we have learned that God's timing, His reality is better than anything we could imagine, so we are now anxiously awaiting the arrival of our little boy.

I told Rob last night that as the day progressed yesterday, something began to change within me. At the beginning of the day I felt like a pregnant woman. Now that is, of course, a wonderful term. A term that I often wondered if I would ever be able to apply to myself. But by the end of the day, as shock wore off and reality settled in, I found myself feeling less and less like a pregnant woman and more and more like a mom to be. I am no longer carrying a baby within my belly, I am carrying our son. I like that change. It feels good to be able to say those two words----our son!

So here is a look at our little boy. Yes, he is facing downward in this shot. In fact he spent the entire ultrasound in this position. No matter what we did, he just did not want to turn over. I personally love his little curled up legs. I think they are adorable!

Now I know one of the most popular questions is going to be "Does he have a name yet?" The answer? Nope. We have not be able to find a name that has a meaning reflecting the miracle God has performed in our lives and at the same time is a name that we actually like the sound of. As soon as we get it all figured out I'll let you know.